[Helpers] many posts.

[Mystress Angelique Serpent]

   For some unknown reason I haven't been getting all the mail from this 
and some other lists... Sachiko's post alerted me that stuff was missing, 
and I checked the archives and was delighted to read many posts! Wow, I'm 
so happy!!!
  Copied and pasted them here so I could respond to them all at once.

Sandra Davis wrote:

>I'm happy to volunteer! I hope I can be utilized in a way that has us all 
>going "Wow!"

  thank you! :)

>=) I have actively (since start of March) been putting invitations to the 
>universe to accept my help with web sites. The general skills involved, I 
>have. My 1st career has been as a mechanical design engineer. My 2nd 
>career is soon to be software design engineering. My 3rd career I expect 
>to be in this energy world, with vibrational healing.

  and finger painting... ;)

>My 4th career at least, will be a fun something when I'm retired... Since 
>actively offering to assist, I've been learning that the people who are 
>accepting my offers feel they are also Goddess inspired. There's usually 
>been a sense of relief - like my thoroughness and love for the detail, 
>fact-checking, and passion at gorgeously completing a job & deliverable 
>seem to communicate independent of where I am and how I'm working my karma 
>trail. (Thank goodness.)

   yay!

>I think the high energy I bring to my process is the same high energy I 
>bring to my work. I feel blessed in particular for this one skill - that I 
>seem to retain very high functioning & creativity in situations that are 
>completely overwhelming.

  o lucky you!
   RE: book from Kundalini teacher: I could manage the files ok, comprehend 
them when it was a website, split into individual files and folders... but 
now it is a 273 page word doc and I get lost in it. Not able to comprehend 
the whole.
    Right now I'm working with just the table of contents, trying to sort 
chapters. Getting lost in that too, a bit... does grounding come before 
symptoms? Should the chakras section,  list symptoms of opening the chakra 
or keep chakras and symptoms separate like on the web? Where to put odd 
stuff like akashic records and merkaba?
    I'm slowly adding footnotes where links used to be, and as it is a 
manual, I want it to have an index... but... oy my ADD brain with dull dull 
jobs.
   Also, how do I make a groovy text box for tips and stuff, like I see in 
other manuals?

    I sent Hillary a copy of the book, she is so great at finding cool 
quotes from famous Gurus.. she sent me back her quotes interspersed with 
the book, in a 400k email because I guess she does not have Word??  I'm 
having a heck of a time finding them and pasting them into the word doc... 
or even deciding if I want them where she put them, or would prefer them 
somewhere else...  especially since I rearranged the chapters after sending 
her a copy... everything moved!

   I really want to do what I do best... the writing... and please Goddess 
give me an understanding editor and formatter... !

>  Maybe comfort during overwhelm is a by-product of my growing up? ??? 
> Don't know, I just love it. Also, I want to share that on my own this 
> past month I already starting assembling and editing material into a form 
> that gives me the best 'hit'. I started with the 1999 archives, and I 
> completed 2/3rds. I have these topics: Astral Travel - Light Ball, 
> Limiting Beliefs Breathing Orbit - Open Chakras Central Channel - Earth 
> Lingam, Light Ball Creativity and Lowest Level Dream of Archetype Eternal 
> Void - Womb God of Your Own Life K-Sickness & - Death, Smells Love Pains 
> Mystress & - Empathy, Title Claiming Spontaneous K-Awakenings Straight Spine

  Holy cow, you are writing a book for me! Coolness! :) That is a dream 
come true!

>My intent was by selecting passages the energy-sang to me, and forming 
>them into topics - that as I read, I'd continue to add to the topics, 
>general areas would begin to grow denser & richer, and a complete ball of 
>energy light would be formed - that in one sitting, I'd be able to just 
>open that document, and give a big "Ahhhhh....." as the truth resonates 
>not only in a legacy way of Mystress's work, but also as a Divinely 
>inspired, total body-mind-spirit God & Goddess agrees sense of "getting 
>it". So.... I'd like to help. Sincerely, Sandra

      That is really beautiful. :)

Susanne Wrote:
>I'm not sure what skills I have to have to be able to volunteer as a 
>helper. If you need me I am here I'm willing and I often have time that I 
>am on the computer and love to be doing things that help others. I type 
>very well. I do have free time everyday that I could do typing work. I 
>understand computers fairly well..but I am self taught. I am very 
>teachable as far as computer orientation. I am reliable and I won't flake 
>on you if decide there is a job for me.

   Yay! That is important to me. Mind you, I am crisco pie crust myself, 
some days... comes of trying to do too much at once.

   As I think I mentioned in the Tea room post, frustration with volunteer 
flakery has been a large contributor to my current state of overwork and 
overwhelm... I gave up on asking for help.
    Did a lot of thinking about that while I was away. I've been aware that 
I hit a limit, having done as much as one woman could do. I did not realize 
how I have actually surpassed that, and been doing the work of 10 for I 
dunno how long. 18 hour days and more, 7 days a week for years, with an 
occasional week or month of burnout, rebellion, or hubby dragging/bribing 
me away from the computer.

   I cannot sustain it, let alone keep growing that way, and the work 
deserves to grow.
   On the other hand, the body of work I have created in that time is 
amazing even to me. FST is an iceberg, what you see on the web is only a 
tiny portion of my archives, writing and knowledge.
    I have archives enough for 10 books, and there are still so many things 
I want to write about. FST 2&3 is about the dynamics of power, creating 
abundance, and living your dream. I have a book on empathy, a manual for 
empaths I started writing, it would be great.
   Ya know... some time ago I had a client who has written a book about 
highly sensitive people, and with what she learned from me she could write 
another... while my own book sits abandoned due to lack of time.

   Partly too, because of my preference for the directness of writing for a 
more immediate reader.

   Ever read Heinlein? He has a character in one of his books, a writer 
with hot and cold running secretaries with mnemonic memories. He tells them 
stories while relaxing by the pool, and they go off and type them up, send 
them off to publishers. That is my dream!! Like Osho! LOL!!
    It is science fiction, there are dictation machines but he likes the 
feel of an immediate listener. It is quite different for me, writing this 
email to you, compared to working on a book manuscript that someone will 
read, someday.

     Carpooled with Sasha LeBaron, learned a whole lot about internet 
marketing and pacing workshops. He suggested I reframe an attitude. 
Suggested I am being unkind to humanity by not offering my gifts more 
widely, making the knowledge more accessible.  I'm kinda... turning that 
idea around in my mind, sitting with it. I'm suspicious of the heroic 
overtones, but there is a truth within it I cannot deny.
    For my own... energy hygiene and well being I hold the perspective that 
nobody needs me to do what I do.. I see Goddess in everyone. I recognize 
that my students and clients experience themselves as being in need, but I 
cannot take on that projection.
   Comes to mind a list member I love much, who left the list in 1997, when 
his process completed itself. When I missed him and asked him why, he said 
"It emits a big sucking noise."  Yeah, and I remember when it was him 
making that noise, but I did not tell him so.
   Hmm, I feel like I want to tell an autobiographical story, release and 
reconsider some things, but I'll leave it for a separate post.

>  I have been a secretary most my working days. I worked for a bank, three 
> doctors and a pharmacist for 20 years before going back to school in 
> massage therapy 3 years ago. I have my own business in my home, but I 
> still have a lot of free time as I only take 2 clients a day at the most. 
> I have no children at home, but raised 4 boys and they are all married 
> now. I'd love the shakti in return...as I really want to be able to have 
> my energy be at a stable place. And to be able to attain that blissful 
> state that I always hear about... Meditation is a difficult thing for me. 
> Let me know if you think there is something I could help with. Sincerely 
> Susanne

      :) Thank you Suzanne. I'm really glad you are helping. I really need 
a secretary.

    Do you have the long post I made in Feb. with the chatroom class 
schedule? Can you look at it and make a new one for later this month, and 
for May? I never did get around to putting it on K-teacher... the classes 
page is woefully out of date. I need to put the June KSN workshop on it 
too. I'm open to suggestions for new topics, and I think Gustaf has some 
input about a time that is convenient overseas.


Sandra Cantu Wrote:
>Hi everybody! I'm interested in helping with website updates. I was just 
>thinking about creating a website regarding this topic, I just didn't know 
>that an opportunity would come this quick!

     Well, I am astonished to get such warm and enthusiastic responses. The 
profound relief I feel reading these emails makes me more conscious of my 
recent discovery that I've been working way too hard these past years... 
I'm really quite blown away by you all!

   You know, for many years I have been wishing to travel and do workshops, 
locally and far away... I simply did not have the time to set anything like 
that up. Teaching at the KSN Kundalini intensive last weekend really 
reminded me of how much I love it... and how good at it I am!! LOL!!

    When I was in University, studying acting circa 1986,  I had a whole 
series of interview dreams. Dreams of watching myself on a late night 
talkshow, dressed in silk and leather and speaking of spirituality with 
more confidence,  more eloquently than I possibly could have, back then. 
Since I held a goal at that time of winning an Oscar, and had not yet 
uncovered my sexual orientation I assumed I was on the show as an actress, 
pitching some movie or something. I could not understand why an actress was 
spouting philosophy, or dressed kinda kinky in the leathers and stuff... 
made no sense but I loved hearing it.
   In each dream, there was a moment... when I said or did something that 
sent such a ripple through the audience the host was nervous and hurried to 
a commercial break. I get it now.. the ripple was KA, kriyas, etc...

>  I worked (only for 6 months though) working on a website for a community 
> college, and I think that it won't be too hard to train me.

   Well, being self taught, my websites are pretty simple. Not much fancy 
stuff. I look at the code to some sites and it is gobbeldygook to me.

>  I don't know if I could help doing other stuff you might have in mind. I 
> can also translate some of the text to spanish (since spanish is my 
> native language), but that could be something to put aside or not in the 
> future of FST. Blessings, Sandra

    That would be cool! :) After it is updated...


   Gustaf wrote:

>Since I'm in the line of work with sound design, sound editing, music 
>composition and to some lesser degree video, I'd be more than happy to 
>help out in that department, I've already started out with an assignment 
>from Mystress. As far as rewards go, I am just happy to help. But will 
>gladely accept any Shakti coming my way. :) Love Gustaf

    Gustaf, do you have a program that would convert the realplayer files 
into audio mp3 files? I would like it if people got an mp3 when they click 
on "audio only", instead of the same realplayer file without pictures.