[Helpers] Goddess provides...

[Mystress Angelique Serpent]

   This is sort of an apology I am feeling I owe to my helpers, and a thank 
you for your patience with the stubborn dinosaur. I feel like I have been 
unreasonably difficult, ignorant and stubborn in my ignorance.

    You guys have been great, and many thanks for the gentlest of ass 
kickings to try to bring me into the new century! I am finding the 
technology a little overwhelming because of my ignorance. Trying to get a 
laptop is making me crazy, and I have barely approached the thorny problem 
of a cellphone that will work in Europe... I am just lost. Surrender means 
"give up." So I have.

   Kids these days... I was commiserating with a friend, she has the same 
astonishment to see her son playing a video game on the computer with one 
hand and text messaging to his friends with the other hand.

   I got my first computer when I was 32. I have experienced getting my ass 
kicked by  9 year olds, gaming online. They are actually able to whup me 
and taunt me about it via chat, AT THE SAME TIME.

   Ouch. Armand most always did use humiliation as the trump card to get me 
to listen to what I did not want to hear.  The door of me taking care of my 
own technology is closing on my foot.

   I am frustrated with myself, I really don't want to be a one woman show 
anymore but I am not good at giving up control, even over stupid stuff like 
renaming the lesson files. I can feel my helpers patience wearing thin... 
my patience with myself is .. gone.

   I have been afraid of ending up with a website that I do not have the 
ability to maintain by myself, if y'all drop off the planet... but the fact 
smacking me in the head is that my skills are outdated, and I am a dinosaur 
who never will catch up with what some of you know and can do... and as the 
years go on it will only get worse. Insisting you do things my way, is 
going backwards into a deeper stuck place... sinking deeper into the 
tarpit. They'll dig me up in 1112,006 with my petrified bones still 
clutching my ancient copy of Homesite. Here lies Mystress, she could not 
evolve to keep up, or even at least age gracefully... and she could not let 
go of the shiny thing in the monkey paw trap.

My wetware and my hardware reflect each other, both are too old to be 
upgraded, but the wetware cannot simply be replaced!! Oy! These are the 
kind of pictures Armand gives me, once I get beat up enough to ask... be 
happy you are not a Shaman!!

  My only comfort is that the things I do best, writing and teaching, do 
not go out of date... and that door is opening wider and wider... :)
  I wonder if Osho knew how to use a computer?


At 06:47 PM 1/16/2006, Mystress Angelique Serpent wrote:
>    Ok. I am humbled and penitent, and shall mend my dinosaur ways.
>     I am off to ebay to get Macromedia Studio 8 and Adobe Creative Suite 2.
>
>At 10:37 AM 1/16/2006, you wrote:
>
> >----- Original Message -----
> >From: "Rich" <rich at ulterium.com>
> >To: "'FST Helpers list.'" <Helpers at fire-serpent.org>
> >Sent: Monday, January 16, 2006 1:17 AM
> >Subject: Re: [Helpers] fscnew-fstlinks.html
> >
> >
> > >>From what I've seen FrontPage will automatically update all the
> > >>links inside
> > > the html pages when a file is renamed from within the application.
> > > It has to
> > > catalogue and carry the whole site in one folder (or subfolders) to
> > > be able
> > > to do this.
> >
> >I think Dreamweaver will do the same thing.
> >
> >sachiko
> >
> >
> >
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